Monday, February 1, 2010

no inspiration

so ive really been wanting to post something but i just havent had any inspiration to write about.
okai... maybe i have i just have been too lazy to type it all out.
i sit on the computer almost daily on facebook and cant manage to post something simple on my blog.
man im patheric!

anyways. this last week my dad came into my class as my guest speaker for class.
now... my dad has always been an inspiration to me and someone i can look up to.
but sometimes i need a good reminder!
he came in and gave a little inspiration to the kids in the class.
my dads story is quite inspiring if i do so myself. one thing that i truly admire about him is that he wont take no for an answer! and that should be everyone philosophy. if you have a dream go after it. dont let anyone tell you that you cant have what you want, because you CAN! theres nothing out there that is too hard to reach for.

"reach for the stars so if you fall you land on the clouds"
sometimes i wish i was more like him or even my sister chyenne who are SO determined to do what they want. they set their mind on something and thats all they are focus on and go after it!

altho i do remember the one time someone had inferred that i couldnt make it into byu with the grades i had. things like that shouldnt set you off. they should fire you up.
prove them wrong!
dont let somones words determine your life.
its YOURS!

so go out there and live your life!!
do things that people only dream about.
do something crazy
do something worth while.
do anything that you want.

be wrong. be right. be crazy. be spunky. be unique. be yourself. just saying...

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Its a New Year

So i wont lie. this past year was quite a trouble. but i cant say that i would have changed it in any way. i learned so many things this past year. grew up and gave me different outlooks on life.

there were lots of struggles at home. but somehow we always managed to pull through. i remember the day when we left for a day and came back to a door full of everyday useful things that we as a family were running out of. who could possible do this? why? the love shown was beyond comprehension. and of course that was not the end to it all. i was able to go to girls camp, me my mom and sister which we were planning on not going to. the same people helping my family. i am so grateful to the women and everyone else who supported my family in any way possible. there is no way i can repay them for the things they did, at least for now. and i hope when i grow up i can lighten someone's burden just the way they did.

This time for me and the rest of my family has been nothing but a humbling experience. we constantly think that we need everything now now now! and we need to have the best of the best, dine out, have your electronics. but when your in the hustle and bustle of it all you forget to realize the things that matter most. like spending time with family, listning, helping, caring, and loving. it has in every way opened my eyes to things that i before closed my eyes to. im learning and im trying to take what i am given and appreciate it. its hard but in the end it will be worth it.

This year had its struggles but it had its moments of laughter and smiles. heartfelt moments and memories that will last me a life time. my last year of girls camp and efy. going up to SOAR and meeting some of the most amazing girls on the face of the earth. my "first real" boyfriend, ALL of summer, disneyland trips, beach trips, meeting new friend like rachel, cynthia, treana and a ton more. moments spent with family. completing my young womens personal progress. youth committee finally applying to college and getting accepted.

I will never forget this past year. ive been humbled. ive learned. ive grown. ive had my heart broken. Ive loved. Ive cried. Ive laughed and ive smiled.

And now... this is my year. 2010. time to graduate. time to turn 18 and be an adult. time to get a job. time to move out. time to live on my own. time to improve. time to be better. time to blog more! lol. time to head off to college. time to accomplish my dreams. time to go out there and make every moment count. time to make it the best year ever!

I guess what ive learned most is learn from every experience. Be greatful for what you do have. cherish family and friends. Never give up because life keeps on going.

goodbye 2009


this is my year! just saying....

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

our time

wow can you say an overwhelming amount of feelings and inspiration in the matter of minutes.

my best friend texted me and all texts that come from her are something like "hey i'm happy to call you my friend" or something rediculously funny like how she tripped over a tree or something. but this text was a little different. i hope she doesn't mind me sharing but i am going to anyway. great friend i am. i know. it read:
"college is gonna be hard! why do we want to go to one?"
she wasn't really acting her normal self. i knew something was up. she seems to be in a rut. and i know i am to when i think a lot. find myself doing that a lot. it was then that it hit me!

were coming to that point in time where things are changing. were coming to the beginning of something amazing. our lives have not even started yet! and its all rather a scary thought. time is flying and as seniors were realizing that this is it. this is what we've been working so hard for and we're just at the beginning. we're ending a year o being dependent on our parents or others. and we're moving on to a time where we are on our own and we depend on no one else but ourselves. but now, it our time!
i know it's gonna be a big change and it's gonna be scary as crap! it's going to take time to adjust but its all going to be okai in the end. everyone goes through it. some fail and some succeed. but i hope that we all strive to be only the best and pull through and stand champions at the end.

she went on telling me that "its not just that. it's once we are on our own. i feel like it will be so hard that ill quit or fail"

see there's something we need to do. we CAN'T fail. and we WON'T fail! it is going to be a transition period full of trying times and maybe finding ourselves. getting used to the ropes. but you have to learn and grow. it's all apart of life. and i'm not saying it's going to be easy because i myself don't know what to expect.

a wise man one said, "Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising every time we fall"
we're gonna run into those times when all we want to do is give up. we've already experienced those moments. but how great is it when you come out in victory. accomplishing what you thought was the impossible. you might have slipped a little. made a wrong turn but if we keep on trying and never give up were gonna cross that finish line with so much happiness.

time. it's gonna take time. to get to graduation day. to adjust to college life. time to learn how to live on our owns and be independent. but times gonna fly by. it already is.
and always remember you have family and friends around you to help you and guide you and give you comfort. and most of all a father in heaven that loves you more than you know. and he will never give you more then you can handle. you are never alone. lean on them and everything will be fine.

so lets make this coming year OUR year. let's go out with a bang. and come into the new year and the new lives ahead of us with an even BIGGER bang. because it only gets better from here. so lets take every lesson and learn from it. every mistake and grow from it. let's make this last year count. lets love a little more. give thanks for where we are now and where were going to go. do everything you need! don't give up. stay strong. and most of all keep the faith!

(class of 2010!! :])

...just saying...

Friday, November 27, 2009

first one down.... so many more to go....

So I'm coming to that point in time in my life where things are changing. I'm starting to realize that nothings black and white anymore. And it can be tough getting older. You worry about your applications that need to be filled out and turned in at a specific time and then waiting for the acceptance or denial letter. You stress about getting your grades up and what you are going to do and become. It's no more worrying whether or not the girl sitting next to you has a cooler shirt on or the fact that boys have cooties (which might i add... they still do thank you very much!). So i figure lets get these pivotal moments in life written down. Shared with friends and family, or just some kind of record for myself. It's been a whirl wind of events, to get to this point, but i know there is still so much ahead of me.
And I'm JUST getting started! just saying......